i know this one girl who is extremely annoying, and i really want to remove her off of facebook.. it sucks because she knows my friends and we go to the same school. she always fishes for compliments, and she has a heart attack every time i like her pictures. then again.. i only like her pictures because she tells me to. i mean, who does that? “comment and like my photo!”.. like.. no. i’d rather keep my comments to myself before you cry.. and if the photo was actually nice, don’t you think i’d say something by now? all you get is a “like” because i like the fact that you’re not ashamed that you look totally retarded with that outfit and that pose you did. what are you thinking? i don’t know. ou. then it fucking annoys me when this girl posts on my facebook wall. oh, but i can’t reply to the post! why? because she tells me to write back on her wall. well.. fuck you bitch. it isn’t convenient for me to do that because that means i have to go to your profile, look at your hideous profile picture .. that is now x10 bigger, and write some sappy bullshit wall post.. i’m really contemplating on ignoring her existence at school, so that i can delete her on facebook.. hopefully she doesn’t inbox me.. the end.

i hate to say this, but i really don’t have a lot of friends that are female. if i sit down to eat with you, i don’t consider you as a friend.. i hate to break it to some of you. it’s been going on for years, and i think it’s time i put a stop to this nonsense that i have to deal with these stupid cunts. so, half of these bitches should stop claiming that they’re close to me. if you don’t know the colour of my lipstick, settle your fucking ass down. there are girls who use me as a bragging right, and it’s really unnecessary. i mean, it’s annoying that these girls only call me out just to bring me around to meet their friends.. why? i don’t know. this is the funny part. so, when i don’t go to meet up with these girls, they get mad and call me a bitch. i mean, i’d come around if you weren’t using me as a bragging right. i’d be your friend if you didn’t try so hard because you’re really coming off as an obsessive clingy bitch. i know i’m me and all.. but you’re you, and that’s why i need to keep away from you.. the end.

people on campus are like seagulls. they see free food and they fucking cause a fucking shit storm. this angry hungry mob of them are pretty much attacking the site. well.. it’s only ten-thirty in the morning and people already want pizza? hello.. these poor people are just setting up right now. 

i’m still sick. my nose is swollen and won’t stop running unless i go out in the cold. i can breathe properly when i smoke, but what good does that do.. omg. i just saw a friend of mine. well.. i’m fucking tired and i wish i could eat pizza right now, considering there’s a pizza set up on my campus right now. they have a green screen and three ovens set up. omg.. pizza.

now where did i leave off.. oh right. i went to school today and saw emanuel.. a guy who has had the biggest crush on me. he asked me if i was single, i smiled, grinned, and walked away. i’m guessing he re-added me on facebook just to double check my relationship status, and was happy. i mean, he only deleted me off facebook because he heard the bad news two months ago, when i was just getting into a new relationship. well.. here comes the fun part. 

yesterday, my boyfriend came to visit me on my school campus.. he even packed me up a lunch, though i buy my food at school. it was nice to see him in a different environment, my environment. you could already tell he was really uncomfortable when we stepped outside the lounge we were chilling as we walked towards my lecture. he was really clammy as we walked, and wanted to hold hands, kiss and all that jazz. for me, i don’t like showing affection in the public eyes because that’s something high-schoolers do when they think they’re in love. i’m a university student and i’ve been pretty much independent all of my life. it’s things like that which makes me irritated because.. well, look at me, i could careless if i’m holding hands with someone or not. things were a little rocky, but things made it back up for a while.. then back down when we got on the bus. i don’t know.. i just went to work and continued on with my day. came home, ate a salad, and went to bed.

people at my school campus are just so obnoxious it drives me insane.. it feels like higschool all over again. i feel like i’m dealing with a bunch of rowdy freshmen dumb asses on a daily basis. i can’t seem to figure out why these people are so fucking loud. please settle the face fuck down. no one gives a fuck if you need a cigarette. why don’t you go elsewhere and buy a pack with the money you don’t have.. urg. what are these people trying to prove? yeah, you’re fucking loud as fuck and everyone can hear you. i’m sitting here trying to read this online article with my music blasting in my ear, yet these people are literally screaming. if my music doesn’t make me deaf, this bitch right next to me will. she’s literally screaming, we can’t really understand you.. if you were a normal human being, you wouldn’t he spitting all over the place while you are “talking”. i think swearing has been constituted as a new language because that’s all i hear.. urg.

i’m having the worst stomach pains right now.. but i’m sitting here like a real trooper. urg it feels like there’s glass in my stomach just rolling around cutting up everything inside.. ou. i’m currently at the student centre at my school campus and from where i’m sitting: i spot a guy with blue/purple hair, a guy in green pants, a guy scratching bingo cards, some kid playing with his phone like a mad man, and just people eating their sorrows away. me? i’m just sitting here while my stomach is killing me as i blog away, obviously..

eight-thirty in the morning and i’m currently at the library on my school’s campus. i have a test today and i have no clue what it’s on.. considering i haven’t been to class since next year. i’ve come to a conclusion.. after this year, i’m dropping my majors in university to go to a cosmetic school to pursue a career in that field. sounds stupid, i know, but for now.. i just don’t feel like sticking my face into books, and never liked too. i’d rather get creative, work with my hands and work with people.. rather than use them to write pointless essays on so and so. well.. time to study, lol.. what a joke.

patched the rough patches with the guy that i’m currently in like with, yes my boyfriend. usually i’m not forgiving in situations like that, but he means the world to me. the things i’d do for him, the things i will do.. urg. i just want to punch him in the face and smack him in the face with an entire salami stick.. lol. well, currently in my first class today, which is my last class of the week. i’m sitting, here, in a weird spot to isolate myself from certain distractions, and i’ll be writing out notes by hand instead of using my macbook.. just so i don’t get carried away with all these social networking sites. omg, this girl is so pretty.. but she has mermaid hair.. like legit green hair.. but why? any who, time to stay focused and actually get shit done. i have work today, and i’m so not down to go.. wah. well, until then, xo.

it’s been a week since my boyfriend left to go to new york, to handle his music and his career and whatnot.. and this has been the longest since i haven’t see him since we’ve met. the longest we were apart was probably three days, but i don’t know.. it’s like right after we leave each other, we miss each other. i think it’s the entire vibe that goes along with him when he leaves. besides not seeing him for a week, i haven’t had the chance to even talk to him, due to the fact that his phone is off and we talk for about less than an hour whenever he can talk. me, i’ve been a bad girl lately. i’ve been skipping class since the second term started, and i pretty much missed 25+ classes. there’s just too many things conflicting in my mind right now, and so i sleep it off and wait for another day to put up with it.. i can’t wait until my boyfriend comes back.. whenever that is..

i woke up coughing out blood mixed in with my thick saliva. head pounding, congested and all.. i’m sick. i didn’t want to go to school today because i know if i stayed on campus and went to my 8am class, i would have passed the fuck out anyway. i’m feeling better, but i’m not down to go to my next class.. just because i would have to bus home alone at 7:30pm in the winter coldness and darkness.. and knowing me, i’d probably pass the fuck out on the bus too. so, i’m currently waiting for my friend carlos to scoop me from my house so we can go downtown shopping, considering this trip of ours has been delayed for almost a week now. i’m not in a shopping mood since i feel gross, but i really need to get new makeup from the MAC pro store, since my makeup is starting to hit pan (very little product that you can see the metal bottom exposed). oh right, my white docs are totally ruined because the stitching is totally fucked up, so i’m going to grab another pair because i love them that much. uh.. and i need to grab more ysl lipsticks.. k, bye. 

yesterday, myself and my friend marissa went to go visit our deceased friend steven at the mausoleum where he is buried, to pay our respect to have known someone so wonderful, and beautiful.. bless his soul. yesterday marked two years since his passing, and to be honest, i’m not over his death. it still haunts me until this day, and how it all happened. well, as you may have read in a previous post last week, a friend of mine named zach passed away last tuesday, and to my surprise.. zach was buried right under steven! see, i went to zach’s funeral last saturday, but i didn’t end up going to the burial. so i guess this trip ended up to be worth while. i wrote little messages for the two with the sticky notes i had in my bag, and left in peace.. no tears. marissa and i travelled all over asianville to get me to school, and we hung out at a lounge for a bit before she had to leave because i was going to class. after a boring lecture, i join my friends francis and zubair to go surprise my boyfriend. got to the boyfriend’s house and he was surprised again. we ended up hanging out with his friends darryl and jessica, and of course.. his sister tagged along and we went to bubble republic. got some food, got some drinks but once we were close to done.. my boyfriend and i start fighting over the bill.. but again, i win the fight. we headed back to his place, had another infamous conversation, off we went.. headed back to my house.

i woke up not too long ago. as you can guess, i decided to skip school yet again.. tuesdays include two back to back lectures. i have lost all motivation to wake up in the morning, and lost focus of that path of success because i’d rather drown myself in pillows.

after a long day of drinking, i didn’t get much done lets just say. i saw a bunch of people, ate a lot of food, and skyped the boyfriend as i attempted to do a late assignment. skipped my last class to relax in my pajamas, and then the unknown happened.. in a later post.